Laju

Kelajuan dan pecutan, satu prinsip fizik. Bukan satu, dua. Dua prinsip, laju dan pecut. Setiap pecutan akan menyebabkan semakin bertambah kelajuan.

Cuma, kena pastikan pecutan negatif atau positif. Kedepan atau kebelakang. 

Pecutan. Kelajuan. Speed and Velocity.

Ingat, kelajuan membunuh!

Hati-hati.

Knock Knock

Knock Knock.
Sorry, going somewhere at the moment.


Knock Knock.
Sorry, no more available.


Knock Knock.
Sorry, no longer here.


Knock Knock.
Sorry, not at home.

How about knocking this one?


Knock Knock.

I just haven't met you, yet.

Comel

Kau tahu, antara satu benda yang boleh buat aku senyum? Bila aku on the way ke surau untuk solat zohor, ternampak lelaki muda keluar dari surau.

Tak. Bukan sebab aku menggatal. 

Bukan. Bukan sebab lelaki itu kacak.

Jangan. Jangan sangka yang bukan-bukan.

Sukar, jika dikelilingi mereka yang apabila zuhur dan asar, adalah hanya tengahari dan petang semata. 

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"Sape eh boleh approve cuti Huda?"

"Superior,"

"Oh.. hmm risau lak cuti tak approve,"

"Awat? Kenapa Huda nak cuti?"

Macam kelakar lak nak divulge this thing sebab weird kot; kau cuti kerja sebab kau nak gi interview. Plus macam tak ada point, atau pointnya tak bagus langsung.

"Nak gi jalan eh?"

"Tak,"

"Abis?"

"Kahwin,"

Duniaku Sendiri (Yang Cute)

Tarik nafas. Turun nafas. Tarik nafas. 

Phewww~

Aku tak tau aku kuat berangan, atau aku hanya suka perhatikan. Sambil jalan, kalau aku dah start menyanyi kecil, aku boleh tenggelam dalam dunia aku sendiri tak perasan orang.

Buruk.

Kalau aku leka perhati satu benda, hatta deretan semut, aku tak ingat dah alam sekeliling.

Buruk.

Dan aku rasa tabiat aku ni makin melampau lampau jadinya sekarang. Jadi penyakit pun ada. Sekarang nurses pun dah kenal tabiat aku yang satu nih. Oh, sape yang tak kenal aku mesti rasa aku pelik. Dan siapa yang kenal aku, akan berganda-gandalah rasa aku pelik.

Ya. Saya suka gila budak budak yang boleh buat saya senyum sepanjang jalan. Ya, seperti kurang siuman senyum sengih sendirian. Macam autistik pun ada. -.-"

Makanya, rutin setiap pagi mengadap bayi adalah syurga. Kini, setiap pagi masuk nurseri, bukan lagi ololololo cik huda dah sampai. No. No. No. Tidak lagi. Apabila pagi, ayat begini akan buat aku lagi nak senguh sampai hujung dunia.

Ayat ini.

Ya anak anak sekalian. Mama awak semua dah sampai...!

Cute kan?

Cute kan?

Cute kan?

Saat paling aku suka adalah tolong tengok nurse mandikan bayi, dan aku akan buat kerja buka balutan bayi sebelum mandi, dan tolong wrapkan balik lepas mandi. Well, tak kisahlah kalau nurse kena buka balik sebab.. hmmm, ye aku tahu aku buat hodoh.

HAHAHA.

Berbalik pada tabiat yang dah menjadi penyakit ni. Bayi sangat mudah nak kena demam kuning. Jangan tanya aku patofisiologi. Yang tu sila tanya doktor. Bayi yang kena kuning ni, salah satunya treatmentnya adalah letak bawah lampu biru; phototherapy. Lampu ni bahaya kalau kena mata, jadi mata bayi akan ditutup macam ni.

Dan kemudiannya akan diletakkan bawah lampu biru lebih kurang macam ni gambarnya. Gambar aku ambil kat google. Bayi akan diletakkan terbalik, atau macam orang bersujud. Kau imaginelah sendiri tapi lebih kurang lah macam kat bawah ni.

http://www.3quarksdaily.com/3quarksdaily/2009/11/health-care.html

Aku ni jenis pesen, kalau aku stress nanti lunch hour aku naik nurseri, tak main ngan baby pun tak pe. Dapat perhatikan baby pun jadilah. Sampailah satu hari, aku duk perhati macam mana bayi ni survive nak terbalikkan kepala dari kanan ke kiri atau vice versa. Aku perhati, macam mana kaki dia menendang, angkat kepala, tertelangkup muka, angkat semula, survive!

Aku perhati macam ada aku dan baby tu je dalam nurseri. 

"Huda?"

"Huda?"

"Huda?!"

"Heh?"

"Haaaa berangan!

Errrr.

"Awak tengok apa?"

Tak ada jawapan. Malas nak explain pun.

"Penutup mata tu terbuka,"

"Eh?"

"Haih, punya lama berdiri kat situ, tak perasan?"

Malas jawab, malas explain.

Sengih.

"Berangan apa ni?"

Malas jawab. Malas explain.

"Kenapa. Bahaya eh?"

"Iyelah,"

"Oooo mana Huda tahu,"

"Ni ingat apa ni?"

Malas jawab. Malas explain.

Well, simptom autistic macam ni cute kan?

Errrrr...

Okay, tak yah jawab. Tak yah explain.

Babai.

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Maafkanlah bila hati,

Tak sempurna mencintaiMU!

Dilemma

Masa aku belajar, beria aku nak ambil PTPTN sebab memang sorrylah nak kerja government. Angkuh. Sekali tuhan balas dapat sakit itu ini, tengok sendiri susah payah orang susah, sama berair mata bila patient menangis... hati terus, I meant for this job and I meant to be in the goverment sector; to serve the nation. Ecececeh.

Despite my good pointer, I was not really interested to apply for scholarship as.. well, I think government might take few months maybe a year therefore it would be better I get a job first then at that time which I think will be the right time; I will come back to government. Easy. Anyway, my life principle is this... stand on your own feet as long as possible.

From month to months and to year, still no news from government and waiting for a little longer would not help.  So I make my mind, enough is enough, it was the time already to make a move. I apply job a lot, really a lot until when I get calls, I was like.. hmm.. which hospital is this?

I gave up several hospitals including the nearest country which I could make money for goodness know how much. There was one hospital I cried for not being success to be selected, but now I thanked for that to happen. The others, I couldn't even care less. Well, life works in a mysterious way, kan?

It was difficult for my very first permanent job. A lot of tears to begin with and a lot more to come (oh please just don't). But thinking of my life journey that never be easy since day one I breath, so I choose to move on and face it!

Now, I would say; Alhamdulillah. I made it till this far.

And out of sudden, I received an email from government; you were chosen to be interviewed this coming bla bla bla. Ni buat aku dilema dengan kata-kata Masuk government banyak kemudahan, bayak faedah, banyak itu ini. Kalau perempuan, better masuk government, ada masa untuk family. Macam sama maksud, hidup later on tak mencabar kan? Urgh! Hidup terjamin, ada pencen.

Tarik nafas.

Then aku fikir and aku jawab; kalau macam tu, better Huda kerja swasta, husband kerja government. Seimbang dan stabil. Ololololo. Sweet je bunyi. HAHAHA.

Buatnya aku tercampak Sabah Sarawak, tak ada sedara mara? Oh...~ Dah lah muka ni jenis keluar masuk hospital. Aduai.

Come on, why now?

After I gave up on you, why now?

After too long time wasted, why now?

After I am starting to happy and settle in, why now?

You get the interview and not going; blacklisted.

You go for interview and selected and not going; blacklisted. -.-"

Since I pray hard for my 'jodoh', it is easy to calm myself.. maybe, just maybe... there're someone somewhere waiting?

Hek hek hek. Macam pepatah Dil To Pagal hai; "Someone, somewhere is made for you,"

Mudah gile kan nak pujuk hati aku?

Easy-peasy!

Pesan Kecik: Anyhow, baru interview baiii.. dapat tidak, belum tentu lagi. Gelabah je lebih kau ni, Huda. :P

Pesanan Besar: He knows BEST! Jelaskan matlamat, ikhlaskan hati, Du'a... Tawakkal. Life never been easy anyway, but worth it!

Quick

Banyak sungguh benda dalam kepala otak nak cerita, terutamanya benda benda sweet, yang merelakskan otak dan tidak akan menyebabkan diabetes. Banyak. Contohnya masa pergi seminar persatuan audiologis se Malaysia hari tu; more or less lebih kurang beginilah dialognya.

"Saya Huda,"

"Huda... Mus... taffar kan?"

"Errr...,"

"Saya baca blog awak,"

Olololololo.

Cute sungguh. Hai awak.... terima kasih tau baca blog picisan kitew. Blushing pipi kitew masa awak kata awak baca. Malu laaaaaa....~

Lempang sebijik baru tahu.

Hmmm... apa aku nak cerita tadi eh? Pelupa lagi tua sungguh.

Boooo!

Oh Please...!

Sure I really want to do this. Well, I made a status at my Facebook that later, a good friend of mine pointed out that it wasn't nice. Really it wasn't. I even reconsider before I posted it, I changed the spell therefore I would feel less guilty. Maybe.

Why?

Here are the reasons why I was/still am angry for those with stupid attitude during driving. Yes. Possibly us. Me. Maybe. But till this far, I've never drive since my last small accident 6 years back if I remember correctly.

Every day, I go to work with my daddy. The earlier working days, daddy asked me if I wanted to go with car since I am working with the high class hospital. But goodness knows how bad the traffic is, so being stuck in it is the last dream ever in my life. So, motorcycle then.

Well you'll feel the same too and who doesn't? It's ridiculous huh, when walking is faster than driving!

First and foremost, oh please, please, please watch your distance! Those who know me know that I am not that big-in-size girl, yet not that small. And now, please imagine how close the distance was when my knee can touch the car's door! How stupid the driver was?! Watch your distance! I know the traffic was sooooo freaking bad close to not even moving at all, but that doesn't mean touching my knee wasn't wrong!

What if suddenly you move and I fall?

Second, is it too difficult to give signal when you want to change lane? Do yo know how dangerous it is to change lane so sudden? Do you know how many times I've witnessed the badly injured motorcyclist let alone the dead bodies due to your laziness just to dance you finger up and down to that signal button?!

Please! Please do let us know. Don't jeopardize others life please. :'(

There are a lot more I want to write, but I am still shocked... watching the news.. the football player died suddenly, atas padang, heart attack.

Pesanan besar: Hidup, sekejap kan?

Wwll... Eh silap, Well~

Kitew adew bendew nak ceritew, tapi kitew penat lew.

Penat sebab taip cenggitu. Kkeekekkee.

Sengih Lebar-Lebar

"Any other illnesses apart from hearing?"
"Yes,"

"Apa ye?"

"Diabetes,"
"Okay, since when? "
"Now,"
"Eh?"
"Huda maniiiiiiiissssss sangat,"

Olololololo...~

Titanic

The unsinkable Titanic, sank!

But well, the never-give-up-thingy, remains.

p/s: My BFF preggy already. Oh, please nak kawen. :P

Canteeeks

Hari Ahad. Hanya satu hari untuk berehat. Berehat dari tanggujawab harian. Selain dari rutin yang paling aku gemar; melihat bayi bayi yang membuatkan aku selalu tidak sabar untuk masuk pejabat, ini adalah kecintaan. 

Pemandangan.

Hahhahahaha. Comel tak pemandangan dari ofis aku?   

Hah?

Ye lah. Yelah. Aku bagi gambar senonoh sikit.

Aku pernah cerita dulu, aku ada kegemaran untuk membayangkan aku berada di puncak bila hati aku rasa tak best. Aku ada kegemaran merenung awan, saat aku buntu. Aku ada kegemaran perhati segala tanaman, bila aku perlukan ketenangan. 

Ya, pemandangan kurniaan tuhan mengasyikkan.

Di Kelantan ada pantai, di sini ada kanvas langit.

Indah.

Okay, ni gambar super senonoh of the day. Heheks~

Eh, penuh lak muka aku entry kali ni. Kekkekekke. Layankan aja. :P