Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Henti

Orang kata hidup ni cliche. Kita tak akan diuji dengan perkara kita tidak mampu. Kita tak akan dapat apa yang kita nak, tapi apa yang kita perlu. Bila kita bersedih, Insyallah kita akan gembira, so on and so on.
 
Maybe cliche, tapi ada dalam Quran. Bila ada dalam Quran kena ambik pegang sebab Quran Hadith manual manusia. Macam kau beli Vios G, ada manual dia.
 
Senang cerita panduan. Pandu kau kiri kanan, belakang depan, atas bawah, vertical horizontal.
 
Dan kadang-kadang, tak, selalunya, aku fikir, apa orang kata cliche tu pada aku, ironi. Benda yang kau tak nak tu lah kau dapat. Benda yang memang tak pernah terlintas atau kalau terfikir sekalipun memang takkan dalam decision maker kau tu lah yang akan kau ambil at the end. Ironi.





Buka komputer, banyak benda nak tulis. Bila dah mula, tak reti dah apa nak bebel.
 
Kosong.
 
Ironi.
 

Monday, October 29, 2012

The Fear

Please tell me that it is common.
 
There's something wrong in myself when I put my foot on a paddle, my hand at steering or handbrake, that I can't explain. I think it just the fear, but, well it turned out to be panick attack. Anxiety. Less relaxed. As I read along all the info, it can be mild, less severe but, but, as it affects my life.. it does make the diagnosis different.
 
Among all the things that can make me scared like hell, this is the worst and unexplainable. This is almost untreatable for me. I just don't know why. And considering psychatric treatment probably the best option.


 Maybe. I think driving is the method of dying. Maybe. The thought of unable to control the car and hit another engine creatures in front, beside, or/and at my back is one of the never-end-reasons. No. It is the reason why.
 
Tell me that I'm not alone.
And don't laugh at me.
 
Please.

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Mahu


Sungguh aku rindu,
Sungguh aku mahu.

Mohon ada peluang, 
Mohon ada ruang.

Ada waktu,
Aku ke situ.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Jumper

Lompat lompat si katak lompat,
Lompat tinggi tepi perigi,
Tutut lampu, aircond hai cepat cepat,
Sebelum Kancil habis-lah bateri.

"Malu gile camni,"

Gelak kuat-kuat tahan malu tapi nak dibantu.

"Kereta apa?"
"Kancil,"
"Auto manual?"
"Wajiblah auto,"
"Oke. Tunggu jap nanti saya jump-kan,"
"Wuhuuu. Thanks. Malu gillllllll...."

Semalam minyak, hari ni bateri.
Boleh tak lusa terus expert kebabooooo?

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Oh wo

Duduk depan komputer. Duduk. Merenung. Teringat zaman muda muda dan andaikan sudah tua sekarang. Belum. Belum masa. Tapi sehari ke sehari, dua hari ke dua hari, tiga hari ke tiga hari dan seratus hari, minggu, bulan dan tahun, rambut putih kulit berkedut.
 
Awak, bila awak nak datang bawak kite pergi jauh buat sehari, dua hari, tiga hari, minggu, bulan dan tahun?
 
Tunggu bulan, jadi pungguk.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Happen

"Detik waktu terus berjalan,
Berhias gelap dan terang,
Suka dan duka tangis dan tawa,
Tergores bagai lukisan,"

She did the wrong thing,
Probably the worst,
Leave her with no choice,
Lost and hopeless,
She wants to fight,
But has no guts,
Move forward,
And fly like a bird.
 
She can,
But not alone.
 
She's not me,
I'm not her.
But she's the closest me,
And I'm want to be with her forever.
 
 

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Wrong

"What's your plan?"
"I don't talk my plan with strangers. Sorry, I think you still are stranger to me despite what? 2 weeks?"
"It's okay but... seriously what is your plan?"
"You don't wanna know,"
"Hmm?"
"I wanna quit my job,"
"Hah?"
"Well, someday. Not today,"
"Seriously?"
"As I said, you don't wanna know,"

Que sera sera,
Whatever will be, will be,
The future not ours to see,
Que sera sera.

"I like to talk to you,"
"Why? People don't really like me, I'm arrogant, weirdo, I keep silent whenever I want and talk whenever I want,"
"That's why I like to talk to you,"

You're wrong,
You're wrong,
You'll not like me,
For that long.

"Well then, thank you,"

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Takot!

3 honks, countless fast heart beating.
I thought that's a good thing to have nice plat number but damn it, it isn't fun!


Oh!

Thursday, October 4, 2012

You Say It

Brain; small, fat, static.
 
Yet,
 
BIG FUNCTION!
 
Use it, please.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Again

Hello there!
 
Well, It has been few weeks that I stop writing. There're a lot of reasons apart from being lazy. Hahhaha. No. I lied. Actually I just have one reason which is to stop the readers from reading my post. My intention is, when they come to my blog, realize that no new posts and over time they will simply stop. I feel something bad when I went to seminars, they recognize me and can say loud my name; Huda Mustaffar. It's good, it's nice but it just doesn't sound right to my ear.
 
Like you have a lot readers eh buddy?
 
Perasantan.
 
Hahahha. A Lot of adjustment in my life nowadays and who cares? I resigned my previous job and join goverment. I get a new family members now, Hannah who like to cry in the middle of the night. Like an owl, she sleeps during the day and very active when everybody start to sleep.
 
And...... I have my new braces, AGAIN. The whole painful procedure, AGAIN. The weirdo metal in my mouth, AGAIN!
 
I'll tell you later, okay?
 
Till then, bye peeps.