Sigh

I used to write. I write when I am happy. I write when I'm angry. I write when I'm sad. I write when I'm desperate. I write when I feel uneasy. I write when I'm guilty. I write when I'm ashamed. I write for sure when I'm scared.

And yes, I have all those feeling mixed up now. Right now. And I have no idea how should I handle it. Well, I read the psychosomatic thing, that you'll be having the ilnesses even you're not that ill. Like upset stomach, sore throat, headache, so on and so on.

I frequently noseous and in my stomach, I can feel there's a hole. It is small but getting larger when my feeling isn't settling. It's upsetting.

And I don't know how to continue now. Can I get married?